Did I prepare him enough for today? Should I have done more? Would it have been better if we had stayed home? I am left asking myself the above questions tonight.
Today was not a failure at all. The children sleep in a bit (3:45 am.), which was nice but still extremely early. I did get up with them because I wanted to see the joy on their faces when they discovered what Santa had brought them. Now looking back on this morning there were some clues that today was going to be a bit much for him. The big clue being, Major stimming and stomping with the excitement over his new RC car, books, and video games.
I had hoped that all would go well at my sister-in-law's, but as the day progressed things went down hill fast for Major. It is hard to explain and for people outside of the autism world to truly understand, but it was truly just to much for him. It was to chaotic, which it should be with six kids running around high off of all the presents they had just received. After a while my heart just broke for Major. I could physically feel what he was going through. Multiple times he got loud and yelled at the other children. He even tried to physically strike out a few times, but luckily we intervened. I tried on multiple occasions to get him to retreat upstairs to play the Wii but her refused, because he wanted to be in the action (even though it was to much). Major did manage to go outside a few times and escape with his daddy, which did seem to help a bit. As the afternoon progressed and Major continued to unravel, I looked at my husband and decided it was time to leave. We couldn't get home quick enough to his safe zone. He feel apart in the car and cried, pleading to some how get home instantly. Again my heart broke for him. I love him so much and wish I could just take it all away. As my profile picture on facebook says, "Autism isn't for wimps."
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